It has been a really weird week that started last weekend with the hubby's Grandma falling really ill. She evidently is doing better because my calls to the house and his texts there have not been answered. So we have to assume that all is mending. But last week Saturday I went out to mow the lawn and like most times I have a few minutes to myself I started to just let my thoughts flow. Somehow my thoughts landed on why do I self destruct everything that I work so hard towards. For instance my weight loss. Why am I allowing my own thoughts and fears to determine how far I go and when I go? I asked God why I do it...the answer I got back more than once was..."Embrace your knowledge, Embrace what you know. You know what you have to do. Just do it." Ok I usually don't have God talking to me, much less when I have been mowing the lawn. So I just let the idea stew in my head for the next hour while mowing the lawn.
I dreamt about it too as I slept that night. I saw the word and heard the word Embrace everywhere in my dreams. The next morning I didn't even think about it and went to the gym and worked out. And I worked out again that night. And I took a walk for over an hour. I ate clean and continued to do so all week. I think that is the nudge I needed. And by embracing what did I get, a huge present on the scale this morning. I was down almost 4 lbs. I didn't feel deprived once but felt full and satiated. Amazing. Truly amazing.
So what else happened this week. Well the normal going into the school to tutor, Patrick had survival swim, my gym time, Hubby working a lot of hours and being gone a few nights while he was in Chicago for a conference. Oh and I had a horrible bout of vertigo that left me in the bathroom for 6 hrs throwing up every 15 mins. I had panic attacks, hot flashes, chills, and head spinning so fast I thought I was going to pitch forward onto the floor. But as fast as it came on it has gotten better. I've had a few not so bad bouts of it this weekend but not nearly as bad as Thursday night was.
Friday was the Hubby and my anniversary for the day we met.15 years ago he came to Wisconsin from Michigan and we spent the weekend together. We went out to the mall for our date and Red Lobster to celebrate. Saturday was full of yard work, a birthday party and building a Community Garden in our yard thanks to a grant from Thrivent Financial.
Today I had great plans, but managed to only get to church and clean the house a bit. The kids and the hubby and I just kept busy with too many other things.
Ok well I am off to continue embracing what I know and hoping that this week leads to another great loss. :)
Love and Blessings to all.
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